I’m not doing too hot keeping my calories down enough to contribute to a loss. After the past year, I’ve only just now recognized how I handle stress. I peek in the fridge, seeking some sort of escape, and something quite unhealthy hops into my hands and miraculously finds its way into my mouth. I remember thinking, “I didn’t just eat that, did I?” Yep, I sure did… Then I feel guilty and eat more. I wasn’t very happy with myself when I noticed I stuffed half a package of ham in my mouth. I don’t even like ham much and my boyfriend wasn’t happy that I took his lunch meat, lol.
Acknowledgment is the beginning of the end, no? I think I need to get back where I was last summer and fall – where I honestly enjoyed eating healthy. I’m sure it will change when I’m back at work this summer and have the money to invest in more healthy (and tasty) snacks. Right now I have healthy treats but not many that I gravitate to naturally. Why does everything have to cost so much?
Semester is almost over. One more final tomorrow and it’s the one I’ve been dreading since midterms, Calc III. I went from a strong A to a strong C. I have a good chance of getting a B, but even that is in question because I am frequently drawing blanks when doing review problems. Ugh. One more math class to go after this and then I never want to see a derivative or integral ever ever again in my life. Sorry, kids, I will pay for someone else to tutor you when you get to that point in school…
